one night sky said to me, "if he makes u cry, if he makes u hurt, why dont u leave him?"
I Look at the sky and said, "sky, wouLd u ever leave ur moon?"

Now, I cant believe, I Just Let u drop out my Life. I tried everything to make u change, but it Just got too hard..
sitting here and watching u r doing what you want.. do what you wanna do.

I gave up, and know u r really chag, change to be sombody else.

I wish I couLd make u stay. but tears, wishes, and prayers do nothing but make my pain more.. my heart has been broken in pieces..

I'll never forget the times we once shared and I will never forget how much u once cared.

I was never up set at u for anything u did..

the couple times that you were angry with me,

I thought my self "it's because u love me”
Why do u want to change?
you can do everything,

you can want me to do anything u want,

but please dont change!
please dont let me be on my own!

I miss the times when you were around me,

I miss the times we spent each other with the wonderfull moments and the most memorable times of my live..

I miss u so much..

and I cry..
a tear for the day we met,

a tear for the day u said u love me,

a tear for all the moments I heaLd u in my arms,

a tear for our future was meant to be,

a tear for everything that was so true..

I wonder why,

why is it that after all the pain you've put me through I still seem to love u?

everytime I see u,

it's like meeting u for the first time all over again..

what can I do know with the memories of what we had,

and the pain u left? but why is it that I love u,

love u more than ever..

But eventually, I realize that maybe I'm not what you need.

so I will let u go.

I will always love u

I hope that Life will bring u the most beautifull things.. and I hope u have alll you've dreamed of..

Deep Inside,, I fell Like I'm Dying..

I love u

u mean everything to me ..

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delapanbelasmaret2011

seiring dengan berjalannya waktu
semakin kesini ntah knpa sy makin tambah ragu dgn smuanya
ragu dgn apa yg tlah sy jalani.
sy berusaha bertahan atas nama komitmen
bertahan atas nama rasa dan perasaan
dan bertahan dengan keyakinan bahwa semua ini hanyalah kejenuhan sesaat
tapi semakin sy bertahan, semakin sy lelah
semakin sy letih untuk tetap menopang semuanya

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catatan kosong dalam perjalanan menuju Bandung

Lelah, letih. Saat terhempaskan, saat tersisihkan dan menjadi terlupakan.
Sy benci keadaan ini. Benci situasi seperti ini.
Seandainya waktu bisa kembali, izinkan sy untuk tidak memilih jalan ini Ya Allah. Seandainya waktu bisa kembali, sy berharap dapat tetap tinggal berdekatan bersama keluarga dan sahabat2 sy.
Lalu buat apa sy bertahan dgn jalan ini?
Namun, sanggupkah sy mengakhirinya? Karena tak seorgpun yg tau betapa sulitnya ini. Tak seorgpun mengerti betapa sakitnya ini.
Ya Allah berikan aku semangat untuk kuat, berikan aku kekuatan untuk menjadi dewasa.

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